The blue Christmas thing is relatively new to me. I used to like Christmas. I already talked about this a little bit in a previous week's Working On Us post. For most of my life, I was a Christmas girl (albeit of the atheist variety). It was a time for food, family, decorations, and more… Continue reading A Blue Christmas – Depression and the Holidays
In this series, I dig a little deeper into the meaning of psychology-related terms. This week's term is enmeshment. Enmeshment was first described by family therapist Salavador Minuchin. It occurs when there is an extreme lack of boundaries, which prevents healthy differentiation into autonomous individuals. It occurs most often in families, although it can happen… Continue reading What is… Enmeshment
I've been thinking lately about my inability to maintain relationships with people. Depression has caused me to shut a lot of people out of my life. Mostly I haven't given it much thought, but it dawned on me that it has to do with a sense of brokenness. My illness makes it hard to be… Continue reading Brokenness
It's easy for me to focus on how my mental illness has affected me, but it has also profoundly affected my family, and that's something that perhaps I should give a bit more thought to. When I first became ill in 2007, I didn't say anything to my parents or brother, although my mom thought… Continue reading My mental illness is a member of the family
I never would have thought that I would feel like a stranger in my own family. Depression changed everything, though. I spent Christmas with my family this year. It was a small gathering - just my parents, my brother, his fiancee, and me. Except it didn't feel small; it seemed like there were far too… Continue reading Feeling Like a Stranger in My Own Family
Depression is a profoundly isolating illness, as many mental illnesses can be, and as my illness progresses in many ways I find myself evolving into a hermit of sorts.