Recently, I had a bit of an aha moment while commenting on a post by Caz at Mental Health 360º, making a connection related to anhedonia that had never crossed my mind before. She was talking about the idea that motivation follows activation. Earlier in the course of my illness, I figured it was worth… Continue reading An Anhedonia Aha Moment
I've never been particularly interested in material things, and I don't accumulate a lot of stuff. I get satisfaction from getting rid of things, so every so often I'll do some paring down. A while back, I wrote about Depression and Closet/Identity Thinning, and whether I should get rid of the more dressy, feminine clothing… Continue reading Letting Go of a Life Before Depression
The blue Christmas thing is relatively new to me. I used to like Christmas. For most of my life, I was a Christmas girl (albeit of the atheist variety). It was a time for food, family, decorations, and more food. Christmas was never stressful for me. I have a pretty small immediate family, so there… Continue reading A Blue Christmas – Depression and the Holidays
Chances are the first thing that comes to most people's minds when they think about depression is depressed mood, right? But while depressed mood is often a major part of depressive illnesses, sometimes it plays a minor role and other times it's not present at all. Major depressive episode symptoms The symptoms of depression are… Continue reading Depression Without the Depressed Part?
Image by Goran Horvat from Pixabay There's a lot that illness has taken away from me. Here are a few things that I miss: Planning and getting excited about where my next travel destination might beEnjoying going out to eatEnjoying spending time with close friendsBeing interested in going to theatre performancesHaving fun getting ready to go out somewhere… Continue reading What I Miss Most Because of Depression
Last week I was reading a post on Revenge of Eve about her weekly happy list challenge. The challenge for the week was to identify routines that bring you joy. I adore Candace and normally participate in her challenges and such things, but this one just wasn't doing it for me, and that got me thinking.… Continue reading Depression & Emotions: Positive & Negative Affect
I've been in Florence that last couple of days and I'm not much of a fan. There are a shit-ton of people here crammed into a small area, many of them in large obnoxious tour groups. I've been having quite a bit of derealization to get me through it. Yesterday I walked right over some… Continue reading Going Through the Motions
I'm in Rome, the first stop of my Italian vacation and home of amazing art and history. And by amazing I mean more along the lines of "meh". I'm finding the crowds hard to handle. At the Vatican museums all I could think was get me the hell outta here, and my response to the… Continue reading Sometimes “meh” is the best I can come up with
There have been a lot of horrific events in the news lately. As I saw these events on the news, I knew cognitively how terrible they were, but on an emotional level, I just felt nothing. I am not a cruel, heartless sort of person, but I still felt nothing.