I Lost My Little Apricot by Melody Finch, the lovely Caramel (Learner at Love), shares the heart-wrenching experience of miscarrying.
The foreword includes the figure that one in four pregnancies will end in miscarriage, and points out that it’s a subject that doesn’t get talked about enough.
Parts of the book were written before and after the miscarriage, capturing both the joy of pregnancy and the pain of loss. She described the poetic pieces as ditties, writing:
My ditties will be a way for me to record this dramatic page in my life. The joy and the grief, the wonder and the loneliness, the dreams and the prayers. I’m sad for the loss of a million possibilities, a million hopes, a million stories, a million delights. I don’t know how else to record this time, one of the most significant events of my life…other than this collection of little ditties.
Some of the pieces were written directly to her little apricot; she explains early in the book why she uses this term. The book also includes things that helped with her healing, including her faith and giving her apricot a resting place near her family home.
I Lost My Little Apricot is simply yet beautifully written. It gives the reader a glimpse into an intensely personal experience, and also serves as a loving memorial.
I Lost My Little Apricot is available on Amazon (affiliate link).
Visit Mel on her blog Caramel (Learner at Love).
You can find my other book reviews here, including the books from Melody Finch’s Learners At Love trilogy.
<3 Thank you Ashley <3
I found it an immense relief to be able to write my thoughts and feelings down. Being able to hold them in my little book is a great tonic. I needed to mark (her) loss. I didn't want (her) to slip away as if she was of no importance. I think that would have made the grief worse.
I am so sorry for your loss. I too have had that experience. It was gut wrenching for me especially because I was at an age where I could not easily conceive again. We are a happy family of three but I have often wondered what life might be like as a family of four.
What ifs are so hard.
Such a sad experience and it happens quite frequently, yet talking about it and shared stories are not that easy to find. I hope this book reaches women going through it and that they can find some comfort in it, knowing that they are not alone.
I hope so too.
I didn’t know miscarriages were that common 🙁
Yeah, it’s scary!
It is!