Triumph by Trepanation is a short (47 page) book by Nina Rabinowitz that describes how she was able to find healing from an anxiety disorder.
The book begins with her youth in a New Jersey suburb. She was expected to follow the standard “New York Jewish Roadmap” of what constituted acceptable life choices. She describes how she started to feel disconnected and like the world had lost its colour. She then started having panic attacks and physical symptoms of anxiety.
She first started to see a psychiatrist while in college, and the book covers her attempts to manage her anxiety and emotional disconnect with medications, therapy, and yoga.
After moving to Israel, things took an unexpected turn, and she ended up in hospital on a neurosurgical unit. After surgery to remove a brain tumour, she writes that “Slowly, almost indiscernibly at first, my emotions simply began to return on their own— the tide that had receded so long was rising again.”
The author describes what it was like to be able to feel emotions again for the first time since childhood, and the importance of being able to cry and release sadness. She talks about the significant positive impact this had on her mental health and her ability to manage her anxiety disorder.
She identifies several possible reasons for her dramatic recovery, taking the stance of curious knowledge-seeker rather than being firmly attached to any particular explanation. One of the possible explanations is trepanation, as referenced in the book’s title. The book describes it as the idea that:
“… boring through the skull restores some parts of the brain to a state akin to childhood, when our skull bones have still not fused together. This, the theory goes, results in changes in blood flow (cerebral perfusion) which could affect consciousness in a way that’s similar to the mind-altering affects after a psychedelic trip.”
This book is a well-written illustration of how the brain works in mysterious ways. It’s also an interesting perspective on the value of emotions and allowing them to flow. Overall, a very interesting read about an out of the ordinary experience.
Triumph by Trepanation is available on Amazon (affiliate link).
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