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Mental Health

How Hard Do You Push Yourself When Mental Illness Pushes Back?

Perhaps there are things you want to do, or think you should do, but they’re just not happening. How hard do you push yourself to try to get ‘er done anyway? Do you keep trying even when it becomes clear there's no way it's going to happen? I can think of a few factors that… Continue reading How Hard Do You Push Yourself When Mental Illness Pushes Back?

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Depression

An Anhedonia Aha Moment

Recently, I had a bit of an aha moment while commenting on a post by Caz at Mental Health 360º, making a connection related to anhedonia that had never crossed my mind before. She was talking about the idea that motivation follows activation. Earlier in the course of my illness, I figured it was worth… Continue reading An Anhedonia Aha Moment

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Depression

What I Miss Most Because of Depression

Image by Goran Horvat from Pixabay There's a lot that illness has taken away from me.  Here are a few things that I miss: Planning and getting excited about where my next travel destination might beEnjoying going out to eatEnjoying spending time with close friendsBeing interested in going to theatre performancesHaving fun getting ready to go out somewhere… Continue reading What I Miss Most Because of Depression

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Mental Health

Depression & Emotions: Positive & Negative Affect

Last week I was reading a post on Revenge of Eve about her weekly happy list challenge.  The challenge for the week was to identify routines that bring you joy.  I adore Candace and normally participate in her challenges and such things, but this one just wasn't doing it for me, and that got me thinking.… Continue reading Depression & Emotions: Positive & Negative Affect

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Depression

Decision Time – Christmas and Depression

Larisa-K on Pixabay Recently my grandma was asking me what I was planning on doing for Christmas, and it made me shudder inwardly.  Of course it didn't help that her short-term memory is awful and she kept asking the same question over and over.  It's not something I have any desire to think about, but… Continue reading Decision Time – Christmas and Depression

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Depression

Sometimes “meh” is the best I can come up with

I'm in Rome, the first stop of my Italian vacation and home of amazing art and history. And by amazing I mean more along the lines of "meh". I'm finding the crowds hard to handle. At the Vatican museums all I could think was get me the hell outta here, and my response to the… Continue reading Sometimes “meh” is the best I can come up with

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Depression

A Heart of Ice – Apathy and Depression

A few nights ago, there was an accident in the Canadian province of Saskatchewan involving a bus carrying members of a junior hockey team, the Humboldt Broncos, and their coaches.  Fifteen people died, with the majority of them between the ages of 18-20.  This tragedy has dominated the news since then. And I can't seem… Continue reading A Heart of Ice – Apathy and Depression

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Depression

Adjusting Expectations Because of Depression

Maximilian Weisbecker on Unsplash I have a volunteer gig with a local community services agency doing presentations to high school students on suicide awareness.  There's a pretty standardized format for these workshops, and they are usually done for various grade 9 classes a few times a semester.  I started doing this about a year ago… Continue reading Adjusting Expectations Because of Depression