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Depression, Mental Health

What Speed Does Your Mind Move At?

Mental illness often affects what we think about, but it can also affect how we think, including the speed of how we think. Mania is an obvious example of speeding things up, and this may show up outwardly as pressure of speech. Anxiety, worry, and rumination can also be speedy in a sense, but tending… Continue reading What Speed Does Your Mind Move At?

My organization system for blogging with depression: graphics of bookmark folder, to do list, spreadsheet, and file folder
Depression

Refreshing My Depression Organization System

Sometimes, depression can cause busy mind that's focused on the negative. I get slow mind. Slow mind gets confused and overwhelmed. I rely on my organization system to compensate for this, at least to some extent. As time goes by, though, the system gets overwhelmed, at which point it needs a refresh or a broader… Continue reading Refreshing My Depression Organization System

Depression

An Anhedonia Aha Moment

Recently, I had a bit of an aha moment while commenting on a post by Caz at Mental Health 360º, making a connection related to anhedonia that had never crossed my mind before. She was talking about the idea that motivation follows activation. Earlier in the course of my illness, I figured it was worth… Continue reading An Anhedonia Aha Moment

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Depression

Depression and My Cooling Relationship with Social Media

I've never been a big social media person. Before I started blogging, I briefly had a Facebook account, but that didn't last long. Once I started blogging, I created accounts on Pinterest and Twitter. I started a new Facebook account, but deleted that pretty quickly because I just don't like Facebook. Last year, I created… Continue reading Depression and My Cooling Relationship with Social Media

Why do I get slowed down? – The biology of psychomotor retardation in depression
Depression

The Biology of Psychomotor Retardation

While psychomotor retardation (slowing of movement and thoughts) has long been recognized as a symptom of depression, I think it's probably not on the average person's radar when they think about depression. The biology of psychomotor retardation is also poorly understood. What psychomotor retardation is Psychomotor retardation (PMR) is most often associated with the melancholic… Continue reading The Biology of Psychomotor Retardation

Depression and irritability - cartoon image of a person getting angry
Depression

“You Can Be a Real Bitch” – Depression and Irritability

Irritability can definitely be an issue sometimes because of my depression.  I seem to lose access to all of my more mature self, and revert to what may have worked best when I was five years old.  This can have a major impact on my behaviour, and sometimes I have let fly with yelling, screaming,… Continue reading “You Can Be a Real Bitch” – Depression and Irritability

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Depression

Is Depression Anger Turned Inward?

My last hospitalization for depression happened after a suicide attempt. My primary nurse kept asked me what I was angry about. She was insistent that I must have been angry about something to have tried to kill myself. It seemed like she was annoyed when I assured her that no, I wasn't angry, and anger… Continue reading Is Depression Anger Turned Inward?

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Depression

Letting Go of a Life Before Depression

I've never been particularly interested in material things, and I don't accumulate a lot of stuff. I get satisfaction from getting rid of things, so every so often I'll do some paring down. A while back, I wrote about Depression and Closet/Identity Thinning, and whether I should get rid of the more dressy, feminine clothing… Continue reading Letting Go of a Life Before Depression

Book cover: How to Tell Depression to Piss off by James Withey
Book Reviews, Depression

Book Review: How to Tell Depression to Piss Off

How to Tell Depression to Piss Off: 40 Ways to Get Your Life is written by James Withey, who has experienced depression personally and as a mental health professional, and is the creator of The Recovery Letters project.  He draws on both perspectives in laying out 40 different strategies that can be helpful in overcoming… Continue reading Book Review: How to Tell Depression to Piss Off

Compensating for depression brain: routines, to-do lists, and step-by-step task breakdowns
Depression

Compensating for Depression Brain

In my depression-free days, my brain felt like a finely tuned machine.  I could handle multiple tasks efficiently and effectively.  I've always been organized, but when I was well it was helpful rather than necessary.  I performed better when I was organized, but it wasn't a crutch. If non-depressed brain was skiing black diamond runs,… Continue reading Compensating for Depression Brain