Weekend Wrap-Up

Here’s what happened in my life over the past week:

  • Amazon does weird things to the colours of book covers. I have three editions: ebook, paperback, and hardcover. The colours look different for each listing, and they all look different from the original cover file that I use here on the blog. WTF, Amazon? But on a more positive note, thanks to everyone for being so supportive re. the book.
  • I am a serious wuss when it comes to migraines. I had one this week for the first time in a couple of months. It wasn’t that bad; I didn’t throw up, and it went away after a few hours with meds. But I wanted to crawl into a hole and die. I feel a bit like a man flu dude. Serious props to people like my friends Caz and Emilia who get migraines a lot and still manage to be at least somewhat functional human beings.
  • There was a tornado really close to where I live last weekend. I didn’t think such a thing actually happened in this part of the world. My mind associates tornados with Little House on the Prairie.
  • A while back I did a major social media clear-out as part of my attempt to resume being functional on those platforms. Turned out it was still too much for my head. I decided to try to keep at it, but did another round of unfollowing to make it less overwhelming for my head.
  • I discovered that the reason my Pinterest notifications stopped and my views tanked was because it randomly disconnected itself from my blog, just because. And at one point I had claimed my Instagram account, but that whole option seems to have disappeared entirely.
  • My brain has been very minimally functional this week, and I’ve been all kinds of dazed and confused, with crap mood to go along with.
  • I have fully given up all pretense at basic social niceties. Eye contact? Fuck it, I can’t be arsed (that’s not exactly the word I’m looking for, but I like it, so whatever). I can’t speak properly, I can’t control my flat affect, so it just seems ridiculous to try to fake normalcy in other ways.

Thanks so much to Johnzelle Anderson for doing a 2-part review of my book on his podcast Perfectly Imperfect! You can find the link to both podcast episodes in this post on Panoramic Counseling.

World Kindness Day: don't forget to be kind to yourself

This World Kindness Day, make sure you fit in some kindness to yourself.

That’s Casper the girl guinea pig inside the cage, and me holding Peanut the boy guinea pig for a visit and a kiss. The happy noises are coming from Peanut.

How has your week been?

Mental Health @ Home Books by Ashley L. Peterson - book covers
Mental Health @ Home Books by Ashley L. Peterson –
You can find them on my Amazon author page.

39 thoughts on “Weekend Wrap-Up”

  1. Sorry about your mig. They suck. I had a throw-uppy one last weekend, but this week only “normal” headaches. I get loopy from migs and mig meds. Just slow-moving and slow-thinking. Well, more than usual anyway! Other than that, just a regular week for me, no drama, just sameness, which I like. I’m looking forward to a visit with the grands tomorrow (they’ve had bouts of kid sickies so I haven’t seen them since September, ugh). Congrats again on your book! Cute piggies 🙂

  2. Migraines are no joke, no one should ever have to be functional when they have one.
    And fuck societal pleasantries. I rarely have the strength to be “on” all the time

  3. Used new electric lawnmower to pick up leaves in the yard. We had to challenge some trauma to do this. Worked effectively. Hard work. And now the yard is again covered in leaves 😡. And it’s been raining and snowing so they’re gonna be wet and heavy to mow again. If it dries out and gets above freezing, we will try to mow again Tuesday.

    We stubbed baby toe really badly yesterday. This happens regularly to us but it has been months. Might lose the nail eventually or the franken-nail might grow purple and thick

    Spouse got vaccine booster and we both had flu shots so we’re ready for kids and their germs to come home from college for thanksgiving.

    The new ptsd skills group is slow and facilitated meh so far but we’re practicing new mindfulness skills as able

    1. Well done with the yard work! The trees really should have a conference and pick a day, and then go to town and release them all on that day.

      Neither nail loss nor franken-nail are fun. It’s been a long time since I’ve had to deal with either.

      That’s good that you’re prepared for the Thanksgiving germfest!

      Too bad the group isn’t facilitated better, but I’m glad to hear you’re picking up some new skills.

    1. Sorry to hear about your migraine. I get visual migraines, but don’t always get the pain, they used to terrify me. Having crazy zig zag flashing lights in my vision. But, now they are just part of the norm.

      I hope you are feeling OK.

      My week has been a bit crazy, went and had my flu jab yesterday and have now had an invite for the covid booster which I have to book.

      1. The zig zag flashing lights sounds scary. I get vision changes, but no flashing lights. Visual lightning plus visual snow sounds like a very stormy situation.

        Canada’s been a bit slow on the uptake re. the COVID booster. I think they’re just starting to do elderly and immunocompromised, so it’ll probably be a while before I can get mine.

        1. I must sound like a walking nightmare lol, the visual snow i have gotten used to and it doesn’t impact me as much now its back to normal levels. I think im lucky as mine doesn’t sound as bad as what some people experience in the visual snow institute fb page.

  4. That’s bizarre how uploaded images appear in slightly different colours on Amazon. Really weird.

    Aww thank you for the shout out but it really depends on your definition of “somewhat functional” human beings 😂 I can’t tell you the times I’ve wanted to have a tantrum, or put a brick through the window. I really do empathise with you getting another recently because even if you don’t get them regularly or you’ve had a few months off, they’re always evil, full stop. I hope that’s the last one for you until at least 2022!

    I could do with a social media clear out too, at least for groups I appear to be in but can’t remember ever joining. I really need to declutter my laptop because the number of files all over the desktop, heaps in the downloads file, 972 Apple Notes… I think the digital clutter is stressing me out more than the physical stuff at the moment.

    I’m sorry that your brain has been on a go-slow and you’ve felt pretty shit. I think giving up the niceties is reasonable enough, especially if you’re mostly doing them and keeping up appearances for other people that likely don’t understand in the slightest anyway.

    Those happy sounds… nawww, that’s way too damn cute. xx

    1. My idea of “somewhat functional” is doing anything other than crawling under a rock. We aim low over here in Ashley-land.

      Digital clutter is so stressful. I keep trying to re-jig my organization system to accommodate it all, but it’s tough!

      I think I would like to turn into a guinea pig and just make happy noises all day. I’d skip the eating poop part, but other than that, sign me up.

  5. Normal is boring. It’s okay to not “fit in” or feel the need to follow whatever the rest of the herd. I gave up on social media because the whole thing feels so fake. Why am I trying to impress people I don’t know or like? What the actual f*** am I doing on these platforms? What is my purpose here? They’re uncomfortable questions which I think we all need to ask ourselves.

    See, at least you do great things like write books and publish them! Good on you for being productive and fulfilling your life purpose. A lot of us don’t even get that far – we’re good at talking the talk but not walking the walk, whereas you walk the walk and that takes mental toughness 💪🔥

    1. Thank you!

      I’ve started thinking about social media as a way to connect in other places with people I know from the blogging world. I find that the more I stay focused on that, the better I feel about the whole thing.

      1. This is the only reason why I kept Twitter – for blogging and mental health purposes mainly. But if I’m just scrolling through social media or looking up people from my past, that’s where “it all goes a bit wrong.” -Peppa Pig

  6. Ugh, so sorry you had to deal with a migraine. Thanks so much for the shout out, although to be exact, I’m usually hardly functional at all while having a migraine, haha. I also had one this week and I think this was the longest and one of the worst migraines I’ve ever had, as it lasted for three days when normally they are rarely longer than a day, and I wasn’t able to even get myself out of bed and was seriously thinking it’s gonna be permanent. 😀 But given that for the last few years my brain reacts with migraines to all sorts of negative stuff from hunger to stress to lack of sleep, it now makes sense because right after the migraine was over I realised that I’m developing my usual recurrent allergic bronchitis, so why would the reaction to this be any different.
    I’m totally with you on the social niceties. I never make eye contact, though most blind people go to great lengths to learn to make it and really care about it. One thing is that I have nystagmus so it’s more difficult than with just blindness, but the other is that I just couldn’t care less. It feels really abstractive, intimidating and, like, intrusive, for lack of a better word. I don’t know that for sure, of course, but I think if I could see I’d still have a huge problem with eye contact because of how intrusive it feels. Like, I hate when people are trying to make eye contact with me, are more or less successful and then make some weird assumptions on how I’m feeling/what I’m thinking based on what they see, which are nearly always totally wrong, because my eyes just don’t really work like that I guess, they don’t show how I’m feeling, or otherwise people can’t read it. 😀 I actually often do peopling with my eyes closed because it makes me feel safer. Maybe it’s kind of jerky, but it’s my eyes so I can do what I want with them, and because I’m blind I guess a lot of people just think it’s my normal. I don’t do body language either. I found it very intriguing as a child, but when I was trying using it in different ways I got rather weird reactions and it didn’t really look all that natural. And I find it a nuisance to have to remember about that while talking to or listening to people, it’s overfocusing on details imho. I do understand (cognitively anyway) that these might be important details for most people, but they’re not for me, and as we all know socialising is exhausting so you’ve gotta think of priorities.
    I’m reading your book currently and, not surprisingly at all, find it very interesting. Reading about so many different instances of mental illness stigma in so many aspects makes me feel really pissed and sorry for people who experience this a lot, and fortunate that so far I haven’t had to do with much of this particular kind of stigma personally. So I think it’s really good you’re tackling this important topic and I hope your book gets the attention it deserves.

    1. 3 days – wow, that’s horrible. And the combination with bronchitis sounds awful!

      It’s weird how people will sometimes think that if they can look in your eyes they can know everything that’s going on in your head. Don’t make assumptions, people!

      Thanks re. the book! Stigma has certainly done a lot of crappy things to a lot of people.

      1. Well, I think assumptions alone are a very natural thing, but it gets problematic when people also assume that their assumptions are consistent with reality without having any more solid confirmation that this is the case. 😀

  7. That tornado-thing was certainly bizarre.

    I’m sorry you’re suffering with migraine: they make life seem like an optional hell.

    I’ve been out of everyone’s loop: kidney infections aren’t for wimps and they are apparently hell on earth to beat. My life these days is me curled up somewhere, consuming fluids, and popping temperature control, and reigning hate and rage on the people who I hold responsible for the grievous harm levied at my parents. On the bright side, I’ve little to report in terms of accomplishments. I managed to hang some curtains yesterday. I’ve kept my plants alive. 🙄

    The book cover looks wonderful. I’m sorry about the frustration with the changes depending on the media. My copy is headed to my Kindle: I’m looking forward to diving in thought it will be post-bath. I’m too chicken to move my electronics close to water 🙂

    1. You’re alive, the plants are alive, and you hung curtains, plus the kidney infection – I’m impressed.

      I wish there was a way to target hate and rage at shitty people by magicking a tornado to descend on their house. I’m maybe a couple of km away from the tornado spot, and all I noticed around that time was that there was lightning. I saw about the tornado on the news the next day and thought WTF?

      I killed a laptop once by getting it wet. It made for an expensive accident.

      I’ve had colour issues before with Amazon, and when I’ve brought it up to them, the email response is basically a shrug, and they say it is what it is.

      1. That sucks (the Amazon). I hate the current attitude from businesses that is basically “suck it up or bend over.” I wish I had leverage or an ICBM.

        But I”m gonna go research weather anomaly control. I used to think I was magic as a kid: maybe I can be the tornado-whisperer 😃

        1. That sounds like a plan.

          I’ve stumbled across quite a bit of anti-vaxxer nonsense in the last couple of days. I wonder if tornado-whispering might b a strategy to knock out some of the cray-cray action.

  8. I get nauseous when I get migraines too. My mam has them all the time and is still able to function, it’s baffling. Like you, I just can’t do anything.

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