Over the last few weeks I’ve felt pretty disconnected from blogging. I know a number of other bloggers have had thoughts at some point or another of just packing it in, and while I haven’t reached that point, I thought it was something worth exploring.
Personally, this last little while has been the least connected to blogging I’ve felt since I started 2 1/2 years ago. It’s not something that had been slowly building; it was more a combination of multiple factors coming together all at the same time.
Part of it has been my own health. I’ve been under the weather physically, and while that’s mostly cleared up now it’s had a spillover effect on my mental health. My concentration has been complete crap, and while I’m still trying to read other people’s posts, I’m not absorbing much. I think that’s contributing a lot to the sense of distance, especially since I’ve always gotten at least as much out of the reading side as the writing side of blogging.
Writing’s been hard too, though. I have plenty of ideas in my little idea farm spreadsheet, but I just don’t really have anything to say. It sort of feels like it’s not even worth the bother to try. And when I do write, it’s hard to come up with much, and it takes forever. I don’t know that it’s writer’s block so much as just disinterest. I’ve still got a stash of posts written and scheduled, so there most likely won’t be any change in posting frequency.
There’s a strange disconnect between what I’m feeling about the engagement on my blog and the reality. The objective reality of what my stats tell me is that not much has changed. But subjectively, my blog is feeling like a very barren place. While it can be easy to get caught up in stats, this is rather the opposite. The stats tell me everything is pretty much status quo. The lack of life I feel in my blog is all a lack of colour inside my head. I think essentially what I’m doing is projecting a sense of internal barrenness onto my blog.
In terms of factors outside of me and my blog, there’s the whole coronavirus pandemic. I’m pretty indifferent about the virus itself, but it’s certainly making itself known in the blogosphere. I’m not sure if I’m being influenced by others’ anxiety, which isn’t something I’m generally prone to, or if it’s more about the blogosphere feeling different than it usually does.
Overall I think the chances of me taking much of a step back from blogging are very low, but it helps to recognize what factors are contributing. Even if there’s not all that much I can do about them, it helps to keep things in perspective.
Interestingly enough, I wrote this post earlier in the week (aside from this paragraph), and perhaps writing it out helped, or maybe I’m just feeling better overall, but things have started to get back to normal as the week has gone on.
So for anyone who is feeling disconnected from their blog and blogging, I would suggest reflecting on all the potential factors that could be contributing, writing it out, and then figuring out where to go from there.