The emerging blogger series is aimed at community building through giving mental health bloggers who are early in their blogging evolution the opportunity to have their work seen by a wider audience. It’s also a way to introduce you as a reader to some newer members of our community.
This post is by Rock Bollinger.
Accepting the Cycle
I’m a little sad today. I’m not depressed, in fact my mood is generally good. And actually that’s why I feel sad…
My depression cycles between highs and lows. And right now I’m experiencing a high. I don’t have bipolar, but when I’m at my peak like this, I’m highly productive and creative. I have lots of energy and get lots done.
I’m really enjoying myself at the moment. I have a money-making project I’m currently obsessed with and it’s giving me a blissful sense of autonomy, mastery and purpose that I haven’t felt in a little while.
So, why am I sad?
It’s because I know that this phase won’t last.
It’s so frustrating – I have lots of creative business ideas, but I know that in order to make a success of them, I really need to be consistent. And that’s the least appropriate word to describe me… like I said, highs and lows.
At my lowest, like a lot of people with depression, I isolate myself from everyone, delete my blogs, shut myself off from the outside world as much as possible. That’s not really a recipe for building a fledgling YouTube channel!
So, I just try to take things one day at a time. For today, I’m feeling great and productive. Tomorrow I might not be.
There’s not much I can do about that really, so I just have to take it in my stride. I guess it’s a case of Carpe Diem. And I intend to Carpe the hell out of this Diem while I can.
I’m lucky I get bursts of creativity and energy like this. I know a lot of people with depression just feel awful, pretty much all of the time.
So I’m grateful for my mental illness, even if it means I’ll probably never be consistent.
Bio: Rock Bollinger is a tech geek from beautiful North Yorkshire, England where he lives with his ever-patient wife and tribe of crazy spaniels. He has plenty of experience of depression, addiction, and other mental health issues. He enjoys using the lessons he’s learned to support others going through similar challenges.
Thanks so much Rock for participating in the emerging blogger series!
You can find a listing of all of the series posts in the emerging blogger directory.
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