I’m not doing well. I’m extremely slowed down and just moving around my apartment is hard. Leaving home is just not happening.
One of the options is to get it as an inpatient. And as far as I’m concerned, that’s really not an option at all. I’ve had very negative experiences in hospital, plus my nursing license would get taken away because of it. Plus I’d have to figure out care for my guinea pigs.
The other option that’s not an option is outpatient ECT. Because of the anaesthetic they require you to have a babysitter essentially to pick you up from treatment and remain with you for the rest of the day. There is no one in my life who could possibly do that.
So instead, I will have to wait for my regular maintenance treatment (i.e. meds) to catch up with the toll that recent stressors have taken. It will probably be at least a month before I am even remotely functional again.
For all its bad reputation, ECT has an important role to play, and it works so much faster than most treatments. When an effective treatment is made inaccessible by various issues with the system, that’s a problem.
I just wish it didn’t have to be my problem.