I’ve seen other bloggers working on or publishing memoirs, and I had decided a little while back that it was something I’d be interested in doing too. I even started working on writing it.
Except I’ve started wondering if I should reconsider.
There’s a lot of work that would be involved in writing, publishing, and promoting a book. But is it worth directing that much time and energy in that direction if other people aren’t going to read it?
The reality is that I’ll only get so many readers from the online community. With a non-fiction book that’s okay, because by running ads on Amazon I can get my book out there to the world. The dollar value is nice, especially since my income from work is minimal, but as an author what you really want to know is that people are interested in what you’re putting out there. Seeing a steady stream of nothing in your sales stats is not the most pleasant feeling in the world.
I don’t see a memoir doing that well. It’s not that I don’t think I could put together a good book with a fresh perspective, but I just don’t think there’s much of an audience out there in the broader reading world for self-published memoirs written by random (as in not publicly known) people. There are a ton of memoirs out there, so the chances of the average reader even stumbling across my self-published book would be extremely slim. Thinking in terms of advertising keywords, I don’t see an ad campaign working well for that kind of book.
I could try to find a publisher. The idea of getting something as personal as a memoir rejected isn’t very appealing, though, so I would only consider submitting to a mental health publisher. There are two that I’m aware of, and I’m not really sure either would be a great fit. I’m not interested in going with a hybrid publisher.
Another blogger/author recently commented that she’s decided to focus on blogging because it was more fun than writing books that don’t get read. That was actually what got me thinking enough to write this post.
It’s not a question of lack of confidence. I know I’m capable of writing a memoir, and it would probably turn out fairly well. That’s not what’s holding me back. The reality is, no matter how good it ended up being, the chances of other people a) noticing it, and b) buying/reading it, are low. In the broader world out there, (a) will be the primary issue, and judging by past experience, in the online community (b) would be the bigger issue. And that’s totally fine, but if I were to go ahead with publishing a memoir I would need to go in expecting those two issues would come into play.
I don’t want to stop writing. But blogging feels good, whereas putting a lot of work into a book that just a few people will read would feel not so good. It’s not really about deciding not to share my story, because I’m already doing just on my blog, and it’s not as though there’s anything I’m deliberately holding back from my blog.
I’m just not sure how useful it is to do in book form at this point in time if it’s just going to end up being a hit to my confidence, and I find it hard to imagine how it would end up being anything but. So I think I’ll shelve the memoir idea for now. Maybe I’ll trot it out again in the future, maybe I won’t. But I will definitely keep on blogging and sharing my story.