Emerging Blogger Series: Clive

The emerging blogger series is aimed at community building through giving mental health bloggers who are early in their blogging evolution the opportunity to have their work seen by a wider audience.  It’s also a way to introduce you as a reader to some newer members of our community.

This post is by Clive from Bipolar? It’s Not All Doom and Gloom.

man on jetski

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Life with bipolar

Hi my name is Clive, I’m 54, married with 3 grown up children. I’m also a full time carer for my wife. I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2015, although I know I’ve had this all my life. Mental health issues run strong in my family. In 1972 when I was 6 years old, I witnessed my dad take his own life after 2 previous attempts.

They said he suffered from depression, but I’m sure it was more than depression alone. When I was diagnosed with bipolar, I started to think about all the things I’ve done throughout my life. It now makes sense of certain things I’ve done. I can now see the picture more clearly.

One instance in 1989, barring in mind this was 26 years before my diagnosis. I woke up one morning and I had a brilliant idea. Why not buy 2 jet-skis, move to Spain, and hire them out on a beach!. At the time I never had any money, so I took out a £20,000 loan!

All my family and friends tried to talk me out of it, and said this was a bad idea, and I wasn’t thinking straight, (what ever straight means?) but I wasn’t having non of it. I thought..”what’s the matter with everyone, this is a brilliant idea!” So I sold my car and bought a land-rover, plus 2 top of the range jet-skis with a double trailer, 2 banana boats, and 10 life jackets!

Within 2 weeks of having this brilliant idea, I was laying on a beach in a resort on the Costa Brava. This lasted for around 4 months, before I had a major come down, and returned home. Wow! What a great time I had.

It wasn’t until my diagnosis that I realised this was a “manic episode” I’m pretty certain that my bipolar was brought on by 2 factors: 1..it’s hereditary, 2..certain life events coming to the surface.

It all come crashing down around me in 2015, when I had a major brake down. I spent a night in hospital where I was under the crisis team.

I was put on all sorts of medication, but I just couldn’t function on them, I had to be on the ball to care for my wife. Since then I’ve been riding this rollercoaster ride called bipolar, without medication. I’m not saying that medication isn’t needed, because it most certainly is in most cases. I just chose to ride it out unaided, that is a personal choice.

With bipolar I have rapid mood swings. I could be on top of the world, for an hour or so. I think all my wild ideas are the best thing in the world (hypomania) then it all comes crashing down when my mood comes down to a low point (depression) this can happen a few times a day.

What I have found that helps me personally, is I must keep myself busy. I’ve found a great hobby in metal detecting this is not just a hobby, it’s also therapy. Also I’ve found writing helps a great deal, which is ironic really as I’ve never liked writing, lol. You need to find something to keep you occupied, it doesn’t matter what it is, as long as you enjoy it and it keeps your mind from wandering back down into the pits of hell called depression.

Best wishes,
Clive.

 

You can find Clive on his blog Bipolar? It’s Not All Doom and Gloom.

 

Thanks so much Clive for participating in the emerging blogger series!

You can find a listing of all of the posts in the series here.

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29 thoughts on “Emerging Blogger Series: Clive

  1. Meg says:

    Great post, Clive! Thanks for sharing, Ashley!

    Clive, there’s so much I can relate to. I get grand ideas all the time, too, but fortunately, on my meds, the ideas are never too huge to actually accomplish. But believe me, I know what you’re talking about. I’m astounded you don’t take meds! I’m glad you’re managing it so well!! Keep it up!! Sorry about your dad; that made me real sad. 🙁

    • Clive says:

      Thank you Meg, I’m one of the lucky ones that can manage this crazy train med free. But who knows what lies in the future, the cartridge I’m in may come off the rails like it has done in the past. Then, and only then, I may have to go back on the meds, but for now I’m holding on tight, as this white knuckle ride does still get a bit bumpy at times, but I can handle it at the moment 😊👍

  2. seaofwordsx says:

    What a great post Clive! I’m going to follow you now. You are so right in finding something that keeps you busy. It also works with me suffering from anxiety. Writing always helps.

  3. Clive says:

    Ashley, can you give me a bit of advice please? I’ve just received a Pingback from another blogger, and I thought it was a good thing. But since googling it I’m not to sure. Some say it’s a good thing and some say it’s not. As you have been blogging a lot longer than me, should I allow Pingbacks and trackbacks, or disable them? Thanks 👍

    • ashleyleia says:

      Pingbacks are a good way to know when someone has linked to one of your pages. The link is still going to be there whether you accept pingbacks or not. I choose not to accept pingbacks on my main pages just to keep the site looking cleaner, but I allow them for individual posts. If the pingback comes from a spammy looking site then I would just delete it the same way you would any other comment.

      • Clive says:

        Thanks for that, I actually deleted it when I read it could be (or look like) spam. But the guy did follow me, and I followed him back, but it looks like he’s been blogging for a while but he only has 5 followers? I know it don’t matter how many followers someone has, but thought it a bit strange as I don’t think he’s new at blogging?

        • ashleyleia says:

          I come across that kind of thing too sometimes. I guess maybe it’s people that have been writing mostly for themselves and not trying to get other readers.

          • Clive says:

            Yeah your probably right. I’ve now turned Pingbacks on again, and I’ll just keep an eye on who sends them. That was my first one and I was quite pleased, until I read it could harm my site as they could be spam, so I panicked and deleted it then turned off Pingbacks 😂👍

            • Clive says:

              I’ve un-trashed the Pingback so it’s now back on my post “living with bipolar, med free” would you be kind enough to take a look and let me know if you think it’s spam?

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