What Is the Worst Case Scenario? by Marie Abanga includes a foreword by mental health advocate and Olympian Amy Gamble. For anyone familiar with Marie’s blog, you will very much recognize her distinctive voice in this book.
Marie explains that writing this book was “my journey to a new me, a me who wants to keep facing and fighting fear, and also a me who wants to share with the world in all candidness.” She shows her own evolution from FEAR as in Fold Everything And Run to instead Face Everything And Rise.
This memoir covers the birth of her sons, her marriage that turned out to be a sham, and her own mental health challenges. She shares that while pregnant with her third son things became so desperate that she picked up a knife and was ready to end her life. It was feeling her son kicking inside her that saved her.
After her marriage ended, she left her sons at home in her native country of Cameroon and went to live in Belgium. While living there she had to deal with the death of her brother as well as other stressors, and she became depressed and started having panic attacks.
She writes about the various fears she has had to tackle, including fear of failure, fear of love, and fear of being happy.
She explains that in Cameroon, mental illness tends to be attributed to “witchcraft, greed, or maybe a crazy lineage.” Inspired in part by her brother’s experience of mental illness before his death, she chose to become a mental health advocate. She writes: “Whenever I smell stigma, I spray more spirit on the open cut to burn it out and tell it to its darkness that I am an over-comer.” She includes posts that other bloggers have shared about stigma. Throughout the book there are also quotes included from various inspirational sources, including Maya Angelou.
This story captures Marie’s spirit and ability to persevere through adversity. She has chosen to be vulnerable in sharing her story, and in doing so demonstrates how much strength there is in vulnerability.
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