The last several days my brain has felt like it has the approximate cognitive power of a bowl of Jello. I try to read, and it’s more like a hazy skim. Decision-making seems like a foreign concept.
It’s fascinating, though, how my natural tendency to be uber-organized can kick in and compensate for the deficits caused by depression or prolonged jetlag or whatever is going on. Yesterday I managed to check several things off both my to-do list and my more vague want-to-do list, and I’m pretty proud of that, even though none of it is stuff that’s actually that big a deal.
I managed to get a phone call and an email done with the goal of getting my monthly health insurance premiums reduced. I had been thinking I should go visit my grandma this month but had no idea how to decide when to go. Then I realized I should check with my uncle, who’s her main caregiver. So I did, and he told me the dates that would be helpful for him – boom, decision made. Next step was rebooking a massage therapy appointment that fell on those dates, so I go that done. Then I was able to pick a date that would work to do my annual CPR re-certification. By lunchtime I’d already checked several things off my to do list.
I’ve always used my organizational skills to make up for the fact that my memory isn’t always that great, and that’s something I’ve been aware of for a long time. It’s important to be able to recognize what our natural abilities are, and give ourselves credit not only when things are going well but also when those abilities are able to shine through whatever darkness might get in the way.
Is there anything that helps you compensate when things are difficult?