Later today I’m heading off to spend 3 weeks on vacation in Italy.
This trip is what has been keeping me going through a rough stretch with my depression over the last 6 weeks or so. Not that my depression is allowing me to actually feel excited about it, but I’m hanging on to the possibility that being in a totally different environment might help me feel a little better. The problem is, though, you can’t really take a vacation from inside your own head.
This is only the second time I’ve gone on an international trip while feeling unwell (aside from beach vacations). The last time was when I went to Russia in 2012 immediately following a major meltdown. It was a really rough trip, and I remember sobbing on the phone to my parents. I’m hoping not to have a repeat of that.
I’m travelling alone and independently (i.e. not with a tour group), so all the logistics will be up to me. I’m quite an experienced traveller, so hopefully it will all come fairly easily, but I get overwhelmed pretty easily these days. I also have a hard time dealing with being around people, which could be problematic. I don’t want the attention of standing out as an obvious tourist, so instead of the no-makeup yoga pants look that is my depressed norm, I’m going to force myself to dress up and wear makeup and hope that I blend into the background.
As for the blog, I have some scheduled posts set up, but I probably won’t be online much while I’m away. Ciao for now!