I used to have a bad habit of Google stalking people and then feeling shitty about myself as a result. I’ve managed to put a lid on it, though…. at least mostly. And then I did a post about workplace bullying. Since I was feeling somewhat shitty about myself anyway, I decided to give in to the urge and do a quick Google search for the former manager who caused significant, enduring harm in my life. And lo and behold, the slimy fucker has been promoted from a manager to a director. And then there’s me and my mess of a life.
You know it’s funny, right around the time shit was really starting to get ugly at my old job, I went on a trip to India. I was in Varanasi watching cremations beside the river (it sounds morbid, but Varanasi is a holy city on the Ganges and this is an important ritual). Some hustler started talking at me about the cremation process, despite the fact that I was doing my best to ignore him. Anyway, by the time he asked for money, supposedly for a charity, I’d actually learned a fair bit so I decided what the heck, gave him some money. And he said “can’t you give more?”, to which I responded “if you’re not happy with that then I’m not giving you any money at all”, and I took the money back. Then he starts ranting at me about how I’m a bad person and will have bad karma, etc., etc.
So, did that obnoxious little dude in Varanasi curse me, or was karma run over by a bus on her way to check out my former manager? Either way, it seems like I’m shit outta luck.
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