Here’s what happened in my life over the past week:
- I did well with self-care. I went to yoga, had a massage, went for walks, and spent lots of time sitting in the sun on my balcony.
- My guinea pig Oreo has been struggling with gastrointestinal issues the last couple of weeks. On Sunday she took a sudden turn for the worse. Her weight was down, she was lethargic, and she was having a lot of diarrhea. I was worried she was going to die. My vet is closed on Sundays, but I felt conflicted about taking her in the next day because I was worried that the vet would judge me for not taking proper care of her and letting her get so sick, and recommend all sorts of expensive interventions. I decided to put her on an all-hay diet (sort of akin to a dry toast diet) and top her up calorie-wise by syringe-feeding her a powdered food mix meant as a meal replacement for sick guineas. She has steadily improved as the week has gone on and is back to playing with her sisters, which is a huge relief.
- I redid the THINC-it test I’d done a few months ago that evaluates cognitive symptoms of depression. There’s still some impairment, but I’ve definitely improved. One thing I’ve been noticing lately is that I’m not feeling confident about using idioms without first looking them up to make sure I’m remembering them properly. It’s not that big a deal, but it just feels a bit weird, since English is my native language.
- I continue to work on my trauma account, and gradually I’m seeing more patterns emerge. Hopefully with more work it’ll become easier to keep the past from intruding on the present.
- I’ve been helping someone I know who is in nursing school, and I’ve been working on setting clear boundaries for myself in terms of what I’m willing to take on and what I need to make sure I’m not trying to take responsibility for. The issue is not so much about what this person is asking for help with or how often, and more about the attitude I take toward it, because it’s easy for me to slip into a role of “doing for” rather than “doing with” because it seems like it would be quicker and easier. I wrote out a list of boundaries for myself earlier this week, and have been trying to be very mindful of them. So far it’s working out well, and I’m able to check myself when I get urges to take over.
- I’ve done some reading (as in books, not blogs) but not as much as I had intended to for this week.
- I had almost no work this week, which is nice from a mental health perspective but not the greatest from a financial perspective. While I’ve got savings, it concerns me a bit when I’m not making enough to meet my basic monthly expenses.
So that’s about it for me. How has your week been?