Savoring the small victories

shopping-list

I have always been a big fan of lists, especially when it comes to grocery shopping.  When I’m depressed, lists tend to move from a preference to a necessity in order to compensate for the decline in my memory and concentration.  When things are really bad I even try to organize my shopping list into produce section, dairy aisle, etc., because otherwise I end up wandering back and forth all over the store, my pattern of disorganized movement mirroring the disorganization of my mind.

Yesterday I was walking to the grocery store, and about halfway there I realized that I’d forgotten my phone at home.  I use Google Keep for my grocery list, so no phone meant I was list-less.  I was then faced with two options: go home and get my phone, or just go ahead and do my grocery shopping trip without it.  I’ve noticed that my thinking has been clearer this week, plus there weren’t a lot of things I needed, so I decided ok, I can do this.  It also helped that the sun was shining, and I had actually bothered to put on real non-yoga clothes and a bit of makeup.  This was my day, dammit.

I didn’t spend a lot of time in the store, and when I got to the checkout I was feeling pretty confident.  On the way home I thought of 2 things I had forgotten, but I felt ok about it.  When I got home and checked my list, I had gotten 7 of the 10 things I’d intended to get.  70% ranks an A+ compared to how I’ve been functioning most of the time lately.

What I’m particularly proud of is my willingness to go for it, to just dive in without my list as a safety net.  I focus less on the fact that I forgot 3 things as the fact that I remembered 7 things.  I believe it’s the little things like this that are often really important indicators of progress.  So yay for me!

 

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22 thoughts on “Savoring the small victories

  1. Kerry says:

    I organize my list by grocery store aisles as well. I also need to go up and down every single isle, even if I don’t need something from one otherwise, I get turned around and go the wrong way and start to panic!

    7 out of 10 items is awesome. Good for you for sticking it out and getting it done!!

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  2. Marie Abanga says:

    Ashley, I just came back to share a big small victory of mine with you. In 2015 maybe January or so, while still in Brussels, I was going through a real shitty time and the meds I was given were making me want to stay under the covers only. I was getting scared to sleep but I also didn’t want to see any light. On the third day of this impasse, I dashed for my laptop and shot out a quick blog titled: If only I could leave this bed and house. I got some positive comments although just by writing, I realized light couldn’t kill me (what a phobia then right?). I then sneaked out of bed, put on my sports wear, left the house, dragged myself to the gym, but came right back because I felt like 300 pounds over. I was however so so proud of myself for the efforts to even leave that bed and house lol

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