It seems like every so often my depression decides to remind me that I’m not the only one steering the ship that is my body. For the last three days I’ve felt quite dizzy for no obvious reason; I’m well hydrated, and I’m not doing anything differently. Also, I’m headachy and my intestinal tract seems to have slowed down to a crawl despite plenty of fibre. I don’t seem to be fighting off a cold or anything like that.
I haven’t been able to identify a pattern for when this happens, but it is the kind of thing that my body throws at me periodically. The last time was maybe 6 weeks ago. I was dizzy enough that shoulder-checking while driving was challenging. I was sufficiently frustrated with the constipation that I decided to go for the big guns and take some CitroMag, the kind of thing that might be used for pre-procedure bowel prep. It made me feel horribly nauseated, but didn’t do what it was actually supposed to do.
I’m not feeling anxious or catastrophizing about it, and am not concerned there’s some underlying physical issue going on, but I’m just feeling yucky, and the dizziness in particular is quite unpleasant. I’m hoping that in the next few days my depression decides to move to the back seat and let me have my body back under my control again. Funny how mental illness doesn’t seem too interested in staying “mental”.